Fervid Verbal Fecundity à la Mo

Eleni is, according to Mellie & Tim ....

2008-07-05T06:00:04Z

....like, the best kid ever.

She seems to do the stuff babies do. Suck boobs, shit, look at shit.

She is pretty mellow.

THAT is, to me, the Most Excellent thing a baby can be.

Julie dragged me up to Mellie and Tim's for grilled stuff.

4TH of July with The Rescuers is ok, I guess.

What the--

2008-07-05T02:34:02Z

Um...eeeek!

Chilling at SoCha cafe

2008-07-05T00:44:00Z

Late afternoon sun. Americano. Free WiFi. Yep. Life is good, regardless, yo.

holy shit I almost forgot....

2008-07-05T00:34:45Z

....that I totally kick ass.

You know what? It is true. Hormones suck.

This morning I woke up conversing with my selves and various Unseen.

I was feeling sweaty (ugh!!! Note to self: synthetic blanket = FAIL) but well-rested in light of 14 hours of blissful comatosity.

I had invitations to go places and was trying to wrap my brains around that.

But then I thought HOLY SHIT life is too short to go do stuff if I am not clit-to-the-wall excited about it.

Another though occurred to me re: relationship angst: worring about whether or not things are this way or that way is not helping me.

It actually is OK for me to say "You know, I'll just take a minute, step back, and really let this sink in."

If someone isn't on the same page as me in heart-connectin, that page will be turned, like it or not.

I am sober, my core being is a joyous one, I am in a really interesting exciting place in my career. Anything can happen. I have a roomie who has quickly moved into the top 5 of awesome roomies I have had in the past 10 years in that flat. I am working from a really clear spiritual place, and my day-to-day fear is so low as to be easily handed over to my god for handling with little ego.

If people aren't running double-time to get on this bandwagon, they'll be left to their own devices, and that too is OK.

I just bought some roller skates and full gear from Motley, who owns Cruz Skate Shop in the Mission.

I am SO TOTALLY going to see her and her team skate next week. http://www.bayareaderbygirls.com. Anybody down? Her team is the SF Shevil Dead.

Hah!

So now I am in a cute little cafe, SoCha, here in the Mission. Doubleshot Americano, skates, Asus and me.

I'll say it again: I AM SO FUCKING COOL!!!!

OMG!!
Srsly.

Tomorrow I am going to go try my new skates :-)

The girls say the Embarcadero is the bomb place to skate.

I have my pads, helmet and new black suede boot skates.

And I have so much WIN.

And hey, all my peoples, thank you for being loving on me. You save my life over and over again.

Wow, it IS a Happy 4th of July!!

2008-07-04T18:35:53Z

Jesse Helms is Dead!

Nice one, gods of amusing timing :-)

BTDT

2008-07-03T18:25:48Z

DOUCHE squad.

2008-07-03T17:51:30Z

Jaymie raises her fist in the air ....

2008-07-03T15:35:20Z

...like she just don't care, as she is rocking ruff and tuff with her afro-puffs. word.

certainty of desire.

2008-07-03T08:05:57Z

pretty much everything smells cypherous but hey, ain't uncertainty the oxygen of emotion? why does it fall to me, why choose to engage with people for whom emotional certainty is not present? what am I supposed to be learning here? am I undermining myself by not having my own beautiful furious capacity to love like a superheated pyroclastic wave of nasty smoky passion returned in full force? is that taste of ash real? borne on the wind from some not-too-distant burning bosky bush? or the imagined feared loss of ... something.

not so thrilled.

2008-07-03T07:54:06Z

Due to my new hellish commute, I now miss my Kinky Recovery group meeting. The group I started so that I could have a place to go be with other perverts and talk about being in recovery from (fill in the blank with any addiction you can think of) in a kink-friendly environment continues on, and is growing Which is great. But I can't make it and being that this is something outside of my control, I am to just roll with it and put it in My Internal Pool Of Zen.

I don't know how to feel about that. I considered it my "Home Group", which means it was one of the meetings to which I was fully committed to attending and called "mine" BEYOND merely being of service by jump-starting it and being the secretary for a while.

I dunno.

It seems....unfair?

What up with THAT, PowersThatBe???

¡SI, SE PUEDE!

2008-07-02T18:19:48Z

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2008-07-02T15:52:26Z

Things in the world I am unsure about today: extreme drag queens. The use ofthe word "buns" as a euphemism for "posterior". Cheese omlettes.

I love.....

2008-07-02T01:08:31Z

the fact that my cats have heart murmurs, thyroid levels of either "OMGWTF jam MORE pills down his throat NOW" or "Um...keep an eye on that."

I also love the fact that I am non-plussed and at a loss to really grasp what is (not) happening in my relationship. Hey, I'm pretty goddamned Zen these days. Oddly enough. But I can't just...I don't know...keep adjusting myself to a situation that is so nebulous as to elude all manner of effort to see it blossom.

Hm.

Might be time for another one of those bowls of magic guacamole.

Perhas things will be clearer.

At least my sinuses will be clearer.

Been a while, strangely.

2008-07-01T16:01:40Z

First off, someone explain to me why this fool has not two but THREE PURSES ?!11!??
Second, I haven't posted in a while, and you know how that goes when it goes like that.
Feel free to respond to this post if there is something in my life about which you are curious and I will write an answer just for you.

If ain't nothin' about which you give a shit, fair enough :-)

Peace.

Mo

WTF is up with three purses?!?!

Fuck Yes, I can.

2008-06-27T22:59:57Z

an "Up in this bitch" primer.

2008-06-25T04:26:13Z

Ominously georgeous.

2008-06-21T20:06:02Z

The drive Down to Monterey was prety darn smooth, and on the final stretch I was excited to see lightning! We are glad .... oooo!! a big lightning and now it is starting to rain. Awesome and thundering!!! gotta go.

Bob Marley to the head

2008-06-20T16:03:59Z

Still not a morning person not even on my birthday and yet I took the time to ring my prayer bell once for each year of my life and once for good luck and then a few minutes to rock on my rocking horse but that was only after I was blessed with a gift from the universe in the shape of three little birds outsde my window singing sweet songs a melody pure and true and I got their message and every little thing is more than alright and I am glad I have my sunglasses on because I am straight up smiling and crying because my god is life beautiful. Beautiful.

KaiserPerm and TakeTransit511 FAIL.

2008-06-19T16:55:35Z

Well, it seemed like the WIN to go to the Daly City Kaiser rather than all the way out to Geary. Alas, No. I am now strolling by the 280 south offramp towards Kaiser and I am late. At least the SamTrans driver was HOT. SamTrans driver #1080, Smoking Hawt. Check out those guns!!

FIRST!

2008-06-17T21:36:23Z

First cake of the 2008 boifday season!

Dolla' coinz, y'all.

2008-06-17T16:39:36Z

James Monroe, James Madison , John Adams, George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, Sacajawea....um....old white lady...

Holy cow I cannot for the life of me.....let me Zen....

Anna....Anne something?

Susan B. Anthony.

*whew*

CalTrain's use of dollar coins for change ought to bring a smile to the face of the amateur neumismatist. I of course merely wish they'd gone for the younger, sexier version of Jefferson.

Superfood BerriesGoMega and BART

2008-06-17T15:57:35Z

Back on the train today. The 3 Immodium I took seem to have stopped last nights stomach and intestinal Holocaust. I almost cried when I realised that even the alcohol free cough and sinus medicine was about to rape my digestive system. If it was not the alcohol, what else in those liquid meds could be causing me to violently void for hours after ingesting them? DAMN.

So it isn't the alcohol in the cough medicine....

2008-06-17T12:11:41Z

Because I took alcohol free cough and cold medicine and oh my gods I am so sick right now. Help.

Carpool fail and CalTrain miracle.

2008-06-16T17:09:55Z

This morning my carpool buddy is ill, which puts me back on the train, which is OK. For now. It does make my schedule wonky because I need to be back in SF for a meeting and what with northbound trains being infrequent in the evenings....well.

The main moment of Zen comes after next week, when the new comute makes it almost impossible for me to get to work in less than 2 hours and 25 minutes, while taking 2 trains and a bus.

On the bright side, the late ass BART did not totally Fuck me today, because the CalTrain dudes actually reopened the doors, permitting me to catch the train I'd have otherwise missed, so Yay :-)

Easy Cheeze Canapé Action

2008-06-15T02:25:27Z

That is how I roll.